January 14, 2007

Newness

i like new. it has a smell, a feeling, an energy that can not be articulated through words alone. as sentimental as i can be (for places, people, moments in time) i crave newness in all its forms: opportunities, people, flavors, sounds, smells, sights, all of it.

major calendar moments like a new year, birthdays, anniversaries, hell--every day that the sun rises--is an excuse to be like new. to try something again. to do something better. to take a chance. to do something different. to not have regrets. perhaps its the tangibility of knowing there's a definitive marker that start and end that moment in time...

i think it's even possible to make something old, new again. a friendship, a romance, a regular mundane task. it's all in the approach and how wide and open your heart and mind are to it.

with the passage of another 365 days, i want to be like new. to find beauty and intricacies that weren't there before, to go against the grain and find that other side of me that hasn't yet been revealed. to evolve into who i am meant to be, not just what people see or expect, but to truly become she...the one that i don't yet know.